Hello readers,
I know it's been awhile since I wrote. Last year, I wrote once a week until around May, and then my writing kind of transitioned into videography. So, that's what I've been up to since I graduated from college last spring. However, that's not why I'm writing today.
Have you ever had an exceptionally good day? Like, when everything went according to plan, or just played out in your favor? But, on the flip side, you've also had bad days. Like, when absolutely nothing was going your way, and you felt like the world was out to get you?
What if I told you that these situations weren't coincidental.
Yes, I said it, you yourself have control of what mood you're in. I always knew this, however did not realize how until recently. I've been extremely independent for about 9 months until I started dating again 2 months ago. Believe me when I said I was absolutely happy and I was one with myself. So, I thought why not allow myself to experience this happiness with somebody else. Right?
Right! That is an ideal situation that any person would like to be in. However, that wasn't the case for me.
When I first started dating I still felt happy and still one with myself. I felt as if I was still having days go my way and the stars were all aligned for me. But, after a few more weeks of dating, I started to have a few bad days here and there. Now how could this be? Here I am, an honest young man with a loving family, great friends, and a fantastic job doing what I love. Why was I having a bad day?
This thought never crossed my mind until right now as I'm writing this blog post. Why was I having a few bad days here and there while dating?
And then it hit me!
While dating somebody you're beginning to develop feelings for, your emotions are more raw. Opening the door to your inner self in order to let somebody in leaves the door open for other things to enter. If you aren't fully aware of your partner and what vibes are vibrating off of them, you'll never notice the negativity that may entire your life.
In my case it was the unspoken truths I was unaware of. I wasn't completely honesty with my partner and myself. So, as a result, I began to lose myself. This resulted in me not being one with myself anymore. I started to feel lost and unhappy. So unhappy that I started to dwell on the little things and not focus on the bigger picture of my life. I lost my purpose.
I know what you're thinking... " But I'm not dating anybody!" OR "I'm happy in my relationship!"
Now, this doesn't have to happen just with dating. This scenario can even occur with family, friends, work, or even total strangers. I'm not saying don't open your door to somebody. You can leave your door wide open 24/7 honestly. You just have to constantly be aware of what enters because what's outside your inner self is easy to come in, and what's inside of your inner self is hard to let out.
Crazy right?
Thats why right now, I'm focusing on finding myself again. I'm letting out all the negativity that was inside of me. And once I realized this good things began to happen to me again. Yesterday I had an amazing interview for my documentary, the sun came out, I was able to obtain bigger opportunities are work than I normally do, I began to hear from people that were really close to me in the past that I haven't heard from in a while and I even found $20.
This happened because I started focusing on the bigger picture of my life instead of all the unnecessary details. You, too, can have good days consistently. Just be cautious of what's in you, and of what you let in. I know you can have constant good days!
Thanks for reading,
Peace readers
-Stylish Ev
